Tuesday, August 15, 2006

And the oscar goes to...

ME. After reading the comments about my "cool" head and "zen"ness I had to re-read my post from yesterday. I certainly sounded like I have it all together. I am really a jumbled mess. I am not sure if I am coming or going. I woke up last night about 2am and didn't fall back asleep until after 4am. I just laid in bed and tried to think about what it would feel like to hold Minow for the first time. I fretted about installing the car seats and how long he would sleep in the pack-n-play bassinet in our bedroom. I tried to picture him in all his new clothes. I am really nervous, but I can't seem to shake this excitement that is totally overwhelming the nervous feelings--other than my unstoppable figeting. I cannot stop moving--well that should be good for burning off a few extra calories.

So please don't be fooled by my cool exterior. I am giggling like a teenage girl who has her first real crush and he likes me back. My hubby is getting nervous. He hopes that we are going to take everything we need, etc. I am brimming with a ton of undescribable emotion and I really hope that it doesn't go away...

3 comments:

Anne said...

Sorry, still a zen goddess. :)

5KidMom said...

In my opinion, a lack of calm is completely understandable and expected at this point. That's one difference between pregnancy and adoption. Unless you have a scheduled c-section, you have no way of knowing exactly when the big event will take place. With adoption, you know for weeks (sometimes months) the exact day that everything is going to happen. Let's face it, you're about to experience the biggest Christmas morning of your life! 8^) Who wouldn't be anxiouos and full of anticipation?!

MP2 said...

Yah, I'm with Anne. You're way cool.