Christmas? Really???

I am so not in the holiday mood and I am not sure why. I have waited for such a long time to have a Christmas with a child. But as I look around the house and the Christmas tree is still without ornaments--we did only get the tree on Sunday and there aren't any presents under the tree, etc., I am without the holiday spirit. Maybe it is because I finally got on the scale. Maybe it is because I still haven't gotten hubby anything to open on Christmas. He already got his big present--a new golf club. Maybe it is because I am sleep deprived. No, Minnow is still not sleeping through the night. I am beginning to accept the fact that he just won't until he is in college maybe. But, as I read in the NY Times this morning, finding the reason for something is sometimes not all that helpful, as it allows us to make excuses for our behavior. I will stop asking why and start doing. Maybe that will get me in the holiday spirit.