Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Ready to move on...

to the next stage of my life. I have been single, married, and
now am ready to be a mother in action. I thought I would post the newest picture I have of our little Noah Hojawaka. This is the picture that was included with the hard copy of our referral. He is adorable. One of my students just left with her 2 month old preemie. It was so nice to get to hold a baby. It made me feel closer to my little guy. I can't wait to get a hold of him.

I must stop obsessing. I have to get back on track. My weight loss has come to a grinding halt. Working out and eating healthy has taken a backseat to my dreaming and obsessing about my baby and future as a parent. I need to get back on track. I need to finish my kitchen so that I can cook at home and get some sort of a normal functioning house back. I have to work it in overdrive. I am having a jewelry party next week. Something I was totally not really ready to do. But I have to now. I do best under pressure. At least that is what I tell myself. That means we have to install the sink and dishwasher by tomorrow so that I can start with the tile backspash before we screw downt the countertops and then we have to set the other cabinets before I can start to lie/lay (Again and English teacher and I always forget which one is right in which usage situation) the tile floor. I need that done on Saturday so that we can start to put the kitchen back together so that it is ready for me to cook food for the party that I am having. You would think that as busy as I am I wouldn't have time to obsess about Noah and how he is doing and what new things is he trying, etc.

I only have 6 more days of work and then summer school--so I only have to work a total of 6 more weeks. I am so ready to be done. I am so frustrated with my school and its total lack of central authority and its blatant subversive nature towards education. I teach in a lower middle class all black community and the students have such different values than I do. It is really starting to get to me. I need them to value education and many of them don't and that makes it nearly impossible for me to teach them as they aren't all the receptive to anything academic. I am ready to be done working. I am ready to say goodbye to this chapter of my life and start a whole new book. The end of this story/phase is emminent and the new one really has started.

2 comments:

MP2 said...

He is so precious. Thanks for posting pics.

fizzle said...

Ahhh, beautiful! So this is what our referral picture will look like one day? So exciting to see other fam's adopting from Ethiopia share their journeys....