Monday, June 05, 2006

4 weeks...Miracle in the Mail....

Tomorrow will be 4 weeks since we recieved our referral of our baby boy. He is just over 2 mos old. This wait is different than the referral wait. I am no longer obsessive about the wait. It really is calming to have a face to look at and I am really in love with him. I think about him all of the time. I hope and wonder what he is doing and what milestones he is reaching, how much weight he has gained, how he is sleeping, etc. It is hard not knowing, but not the same kind of hard as waiting for the referral was. Why? I have thought a lot about this. I think it has to do with the fact that I know it is happening. I know we have our child. I know the approximate wait time. I know that adoption is completely unpredictable but I do know that our earliest court date can be July 19th--that is our baby boy's 3 mos mark in AAI care. Therefore, I know that not much can or will happen before then. The next thing I get to obsess about is getting into a group. I am expecting to be in not the next group but the one after that. I know that our agency will do everything it can to get our case to court before the closure. I am really not scared about missing the closure. I just don't for one second feel that that is an option. Of course it could happen, but I am not even entertaining that possibility. .....

Digressing. Mail just came and in it is the May 2006 video from AAI. And on it, about 20 seconds of my little guy Noah HojaWaka. He looks so good. Wow...It was taken about about a month ago I think. But he looks so good and alert and little. Thanks AAI.

2 comments:

Dawn said...

I know what you mean about this being a different wait. Once you have a referral you can prepare and you know who you are preparing for.

Orrange said...

I was glad to read your comment about how you felt different with your wait now that you have a referal. I've been feeling the same way (we have been matched to our son) and wondering why. You normalized that a bit for me. Thanks.
Courtney